“Spring work is going on with joyful enthusiasm.”
― John Muir
image: Christie Cochrell, Filoli
poetry&prose
creative ramblings & reverie
Another memorial sketch of mine, “Torre del Lago (A Triptych),” bits of creative nonfiction often reworked over the years, has been published in the Spring 2025 issue of Allium, A Journal of Poetry & Prose—a print edition which can be ordered from the publisher.
The triptych includes Lucca, Italy; Santa Fe, New Mexico/Nagasaki, Japan; and Hawaii's Kona and Kohala Coasts. (Unlikely—but then so has been my life!) All of the threads of this are tied together by Giacomo Puccini the composer, and his transportative music (especially Madama Butterfly.
It begins (though not where it really began)
"One late October afternoon, some twenty years after my father’s death, we take the train from Lucca to Torre del Lago. Arriving finally at the station on the lake where Giacomo Puccini's villa stands, where he wrote the music that has been for me since childhood the touchstone of beauty and sorrow. The villa where, I wrote some twenty years ago, they found eight phonograph records with labels in Japanese."
And ends (much earlier) with yellow fishes in the blue-black water of the Kona Coast—after a long, time-traveling journey in between.
Images: Villa Museo Puccini
Selecting a single rose,
soft apricot flushed pink,
and then another,
pink as pink can be,
as complement, soulmate.
And then a stem or two
of golden freesia, streaked
as if with tawny tigers
or Marrakesh sun
(wholly Berber at heart)
complete with minarets,
the mellow growling of
an august tenor saxophone.
Meditating, my heart
comes to be set on that—
a mound of Berbere on my palm,
that mixture of sultry spices
including chile powder, dusty red
(like sun-baked earth, terracotta
weathered by time), coriander,
nigella seeds, rue, ginger, fenugreek.
And I am brought back to myself
in being so entirely carried away.
image: Christie Cochrell, Freesia
This Month of Poetry and Fools
The Old French fol follows
as words do, dragging their metric feet,
from Latin’s follis, “bellows, windbag”—
becoming by extension (following
the logarithmic outward spiral
of nautilus shells)
an empty-headed person, windbag—
so eventually the sort of fool I am.
Carrying with me,
everywhere I go, my bag of winds—
the eight winds I have learned
from dictionaries,
in the windmill where I sleep:
mestral, xalac, migjorn, and then
the wind across the mountains,
coming from the north.
The winds found on that other island
years ago, while looking for temples,
fish traps, the old sugar cane shipping port.
A sign along the road, lettered by hand,
welcomed the winds of Kona to Kohala,
across boundary crossings
kapu (quite forbidden) in ancient times.
And here? The kitesurfers
carried by wind and waves,
by curls of eyebright silk.
That sure, that light!
Why not a bag of woodwinds, too?
Then I will be a holy fool,
wholly a fool, a fool of holes
if they can be
the holes in flutes, holes in
those lovely basset horns
akin by chance (the bas
of low-slung sheep, perhaps,
perhaps the Ouessant)
to amiable long-eared hounds.
The holes in
holy wooden cellos
through which
the light comes, curling,
slow sea salt caramel.
The holes
breath enters
and grace
courses from.
I am a fool indeed
for Mozart’s
sort of foolery.
And for the music
of the bells, i bronzi sacri
ringing changes, sounding
stroke by stroke by stroke
the inspiriting call.
Back in the 15th century the meaning of windbag
was “bellows for an organ,” and I follow on
into the church, up to the organ in the loft
played by Puccini, who composed so many
divine operas about so many fools for love—
until his brothers stole the organ pipes
to sell to ironmongers for some cigarette money.
Better an empty head, I say, to fill with daydreams
and the motley wares of spice-traders, word-tinkers,
peddlers of extracts (vanilla, eucalyptus, bitter orange),
elixers, pigments. Cardamom tea, in a bone china cup.
Fragrances. Tulip oil. A small tube of crimson lake.
No book learning, no wisdom of the head.
Instead, these other miracles. (From the Old French:
objects of wonder.) My object, to go on wondering.
Wandering off, feet painted with henna.
And what do I remember of it all?
The color yellow symbolized joy for medieval Arabs.
Both frankincense and myrrh are aromatic resins,
derived from tree sap. (Sap3: a foolish person
with an empty head, smelling of pine, smiling wonderingly.)
Fools rush in, we are told, where angels fear to tread.
And so sometimes I drag my feet, sometimes I rush,
fool speed ahead, often I fool around, fool to the gills
with this silly delight that comes of having no great purpose
but to go on as I do—most happily in April, month of fools.
image: Italian Old World Exploration Angel & Cherub Map by Paolo Forlani circa 1565
My short-story “Les Godasses Émile” has been published in Lowestoft Chronicle, issue #61. This is a nostalgic look at Paris, as you will see, and indeed a nostalgic look back on my part, remembering how sore my feet were after walking endlessly to see the famous sights, museums, bookstores, and cafés there, and once, in addition, all of the hoopla (tout ce tapage) attending the Bicentennial of the French Revolution and the crowds of le 14 juillet.
This is the third story of mine to have appeared in the delightful Lowestoft Chronicle, which celebrates both travel and humor; the others were "Octopus" and "Show Me the Bust of Marcus Agrippa." Here's what some happy readers say about this quarterly online literary magazine—
“Reading Lowestoft Chronicle is like jostling through a sprawling bazaar in Tashkent or Ulaanbaatar, with eyes wide open and wits on high alert. Invigorating, too.”
— Victor Robert Lee, author of Performance Anomalies
“What a delightful refuge the Lowestoft Chronicle provides, artful and clean, featuring sparkling writing in multiple voices—all of it strong, provocative, wry, funny, and wise. I’m so proud to be part of it. Add this marvelous site to your reading matter, travelers and armchair travelers alike: your world, and mind and heart, will get larger.”
— Joan Frank, author of All the News I Need and Because You Have To: A Writing Life
image: depositphotos, Vintage Paris
Late in February gardens (at least in California) began showing new growth, and green sprouts, and our wonderful local Catamaran Literary Reader published a celebration of gardens of all sorts—Catamaran Vol. 13, 1: Special Garden Edition, 2025, Issue 47—
"In our Special Garden edition, we invite you to enter our pages consisting of literary works with settings that span from public gardens to imaginary gardens, themes of flowers, plants, and the organic world, in a narrative accompanied by a range of visual artworks exploring gardens from landscape and still life paintings to abstraction and realism."
In my creative nonfiction meditation included in this special collection, "Gardens of Longing: A Memoir in Stolen Cuttings, Hoarded Seeds," I hope I show how the gardens we plant for ourselves are a hopeful, wistful, always nostalgic mingling of longing and belonging, comprising the places and their essences we’ve lost, or on various journeys found.
"I cultivate a garden of stolen plants, the way the words of poems and stories in my rag-tag notebooks also make me what I want to be. Cultivate, I see, comes from colere—also meaning inhabit. Like sea creatures which inhabit others’ shells I borrow and then live inside a casing of inspiriting plants and trees for dapple and for shade, and tuck old worn stone figures among them, companions of my muse. This thieving reprehensible, perhaps, but something I can’t help. It’s essential to who I am, and the telling of that. I acquire plants the same way I buy books: believing each will give me finally exactly what I long for. My belonging and my home."
Here, in my always ephemeral garden in Santa Cruz, I find
". . . the salvias and herbs and weathered stone, upstart yarrow, geraniums in every shade of pink, a little St. Jerome with his lion and book—all [these] elements assure me that this, my seat under the lichened pine with just a scrap of ocean view, a passing dog, a junco searching through the tangled grass, and all those cherished scraps of other times, elsewhere, is exactly where I belong."
I'm honored to have this rumination featured on the Catamaran website, and it can be found here.
image: Andrea Johnson, cover artist
The dog’s ears, furred, furled,
fitting both palms
like home-knit childhood mittens
on a snowbound day, a day
for chicken soup
with noodles, rice, the green tang
of innocent celery, finely diced.
A day for Harriet the Spy
or Nancy Drew,
a mound of covers,
and this pert-eared dog on top,
listening constantly
for words promising things,
the faint but keenly studied evidence
of a pined-for and despaired-of
return. In the meantime
I rub her velvet ears, and they in turn
perfectly smooth my ruffled feathers,
settle into calm my rocking boat.
image: Regal Animal Hospital
Egret or white lily?
The purity,
the grace of throat,
of form—
either or both,
that long siphon of beauty
drinking in the long lagoon.
If not still here tomorrow,
then egret it will have
proven to be. Or maybe
Calla still, stolen away,
bestowed with flight.
images: Don Enright, Eric Hunt
Some kind of sprawling
big-leafed plant moved in next door—
from which of all distant jungles?
Place of Monarchs,
place of resplendent quetzals
(emerged from the Andes, related to
a deity, naming a coin)?
A green anaconda, maybe, lurks
among the voluminous leaves,
not off in South America or Trinidad,
island of sugar, home of the shapeshifting
Temple in the Sea: dedicated to Shiva,
then destroyed, then built again, before
being reduced to fragments by the tides.
And built again! Love and persistence
of such magnificence leafing,
though far from jungles, in my heart.
image: Spencer Wing, Pixabay
What is this mulish obstacle
blocking my path?
A foot, and a second . . .
planted implacably in place,
dogged as the most
Brobdingnagian dog or
torpid old Galapagos tortoise,
simply
and with the fixed
proclivity of years
disdaining to be moved.
image: Galapagos Giant Tortoise,
Intl Fund for Animal Welfare
Old recipes: hand-written tales on stained pages telling of kitchens past, and some of them on parchment paper, torn sheets folded maybe into neat packets. Stolen biographies of far-away places and times, of grandmothers or unknown chefs in New Orleans or the countryside of Normandy, a friend nearby, a friend across the world but always in your heart. Sensual stories from distinctive cultural settings, written again while mincing garlic and not mincing words. That expressive ambiance of spices, those life-changing/life-commemorating stories in every ingredient and every taste to come.
This afternoon’s writing was in ancho chile powder, paprika, cumin, a rainbow of little tomatoes sprinkled with oregano (Mexican rather than Turkish), caramelized onions, snow peas, baby lettuces. Black beans will show up in the final paragraph, as well as salsa fresca and that oven-roasted evergreen poblano which will have so much to say.
image: Pixabay, Bru-nO
Words, how I loved you
Then—when I
Was young
And you led me
Out of the dark!
How I love you now
Even more,
As the dark approaches.
(#14 of 15 parts, Gregory Orr, “Ode to Words”)
image: Christie B. Cochrell, Ashmolean Museum
I forgive myself
for being ineffective and unsure.
And I forgive the day
for being imperfect—
the noise of the cutters of long
and lovely grass on the hillside below,
probably gutting daffodils
in the process, the heartening yellow
of hope not spared either
in the indifferent clearing going on.
The unease lurking in the margins
of it all reminds me
of a long, shadowed portal
sliced into sharp diagonals
by unpropitious interpolations of light.
I forgive the shadows
wherever they fall, the chill
of the long covered walkway
in my heart now, headed backwards,
some winter cloister with no roses
and no limestone saints,
perhaps the one way up beyond Harlem
and a battlement bootless now,
won in those hours on the bus
I rode only one time, unhesitating,
to that place in turn called
Chquaesgeck, Lange Bergh, Fort Tryon,
between rivers, on a ridge high above
the city I had borrowed for a day or two,
as was my wont, in snow and wind
and no thought the whole while
of any imperfection in myself, that day.
image: Cloister, Hans, Pixabay
Poetry
tugs me by the hand into the room with all the maps
the muses on the double stair, the dragon
spilling out in undulating constellation overhead
and there—the blue to end all blues, clairvoyant,
on that little bit of wall I might so easily have missed
now that they keep the light deliberately dim.
It builds a fragile paper kite of balsam wood
on which to knot my shirttails and myself, and fly
above it all, oh wobbly Icarus, giving myself
into the breezy, flighty keeping of the February wind.
And more substantial architectures too—
the old stone cloister with the winter oranges and
the unicorn, above the river, following the slow
progression up Manhattan through Harlem by bus.
And in another time, the low adobe rooms on
Canyon Road that were once science labs, where
in a sunny window children I no longer recognize,
long grown and gone, are shaping red clay heads
reading The Zoo Story, exploring new fantastic
algebraic rhythms, smoky, foreign in the blood
as Tunisia or some one of those other countries in
North Africa where they have those brilliant blue tiles
and spices heaped in little bowls, one of those sultry
countries in the foreign films.
And in the ghost-light of the projector
it summons ghosts—
outside the windows of those other science labs
south of Los Alamos, built on ancient burial grounds
and Japanese too—unanticipated revenants.
Samurai faces cicatrixed with characters;
the gardener I tailed after for his measured spirit
raking last year’s leaves on the school path
under a fall of paper-white petals more transient
than spring snow, before a careless breath
melted them utterly away.
And when I stop to find the words to say how much
I’ve missed him all these years, and
his deep tractor scoop that bore us up into the sea-light
of the apple trees, that man of common poetry,
who I glimpse just ahead of me again
slipping unnoticed down the muddy rutted drive
into the canyon’s plum-bruised heart, that place I loved
once and forever, beyond words,
here comes running
through all that brittle yellow rabbitbrush
which the new tenants haven’t taken time to clear
one of the dogs from Billy Collins’s poems,
its cold, insistent nose
urging me up the silent rise, back up
into the traffic of the wayward, chatty road.
image: fresco from Pompeii, commonly said to be Sappho
(just fyi, see this)
Two doves on the neighboring roof.
Two pots of cyclamen aflame
in quintessential purple, pink,
out on the deck in shadow still,
two crucibles of holy flame
calling to mind the Delphic oracle
(priestess innominate and unobserved).
O cyclamen, phenomenon of color
burning at the verges of the morning chill,
the chill our hearts have taken on themselves
this February when the old divine power
adjured by the oracle’s flame
is no longer divine or even old, revered,
its intent merciless and earth-focused
instead, the flame only
a moment of ephemeral brightness
inside the dolorous shadow. Shadow
gorging, spreading, encompassing,
the verge unquestionably breached.
The doves have taken flight;
the cyclamen wavers a little, burns on.
image: Christie B. Cochrell
A ti leaf offering is a sacred package wrapped in ti leaves and placed at a significant location to honor ancestors, loved ones, or scared beings.
But for those who are not conversant with what’s appropriate in context, in Native Hawaiian culture,
“The most appropriate offering that any person can make can be made without any tangible item being left behind. The most perfect offering is one’s aloha, ha, and olelo. To love a place, and breathe out that love in the form of a spoken promise to cherish and protect it, that is the most perfect offering.”
(Leilehua Yuen, from “Ho`okupu – Offerings”)
QUERENCIA: (noun) a place
from which one's strength is drawn,
where one feels at home; the place
where you are your most authentic self.
images: source unknown
(an appraisal poem,
as prompted by Robert Lee Brewer)
The Year of the Snake sidles in,
all slippy and, well, serpentine—
throwing us curves before
it’s even here, even fêted
with firecrackers and all that hoopla
(fangs, lion dancers, marching bands),
though Fate, writ large,
is written on its vexèd brow,
those scales not for weighing
but for naying, eyes venomous
as ever was (green, slit; orange of iris
with a black rim)—not comforting
by any means or ways. Not what
we need, for sure, or readily invite
into our saporous grasses, over
our faithfully sagacious threshhold
of alder, terracotta, tumbled travertine,
time-honored limen
of welcome, reverence, what once
could be. Couldn’t but be.
images: Jeff Beane, Copperhead
Manuel Cohen, Relief, Archaeological Museum of Sparta
James Merrill wrote in his memoir, A Different Person (1993), about visiting a doctor about his depression, saying that he didn't know how to live or how to love, he just knew how to write a poem. The doctor, he said, "listened closely, then acted with undreamed-of kindness and dispatch. 'Come with me,' he said, in a flash ushering me out of his downtown office and onto the back seat of a smart little pale-green motorscooter. I put my arms, as instructed, about his stout, gray-suited person, and off we went in sunlight, through traffic, under trees, past architecture, over the muddy river to lunch." (The Writer’s Almanac, 3/3/3)Our hope is that this collection of writing will give readers the same je ne sais quois that brief but immense lunchtime voyage gave us—encouragement for going on; inspiration to do something simply good for ourselves each ordinary day; a smile; a moment of respite or recognition; time out from global numbing; a pause for weirdness, wonder, and delight. We want to share what gives us pleasure or some keener satisfaction putting down as well as picking up.